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I've been watching late nite tv while I wrote the previous entry... infomercials... I WANT AN ULTIMATE CHOPPER!

I went to the Coffee Garden today and wrote in my Journal that I occasionally keep: (Last entry before this one was November of 1998...LOL)

...I still like making eclectic mixed tapes, lounge music, (the latest Ultra Lounge sampler, "Vegas! Baby") good movies and guys-who-like-life-intensely-and-like-to-kiss. I still love coffee shops and silly introspection in coffee shops... I still think it would be awesome to open a coffee shop somewhere on the planet w/ Bekka... I went to a private club called "Shaggy's Living Room" last night that was great inspiration for a coffee shop. It seems as if a desire such as this is so constant in my life why not pursue it? Something tragically hip... a cross between Shaggy's Living Room and the "Coffee Garden " (which is where I am right now)... a great place that showcases local artistic talent on the walls and has great mixed tapes on the stereo. Comfy couches and interesting regulars... studio space for photography/painting and more for massage... available for rent and for me to use. If a coffee shop doesn't have an open mic night where people can read their cheesy and self-tortured poetry and play their cheesy, self-tortured esoteric music, it is worth it's community salt?

An idea from Chad, if "The Squatter in Chief," Dubya, wants to fight this war against Iraq so bad.. why dont we do like in the Ages of Kings: If a King takes us to war, he's in the front line AND if we lose we get to cut off his head! Great deterrent for war, don't ya think?

Sounds fucking good to me.

An Ultimate Fighting Cage-Match with King Georgie Porgie and Sa-damn sounds like another fucking great plan. Really we'd be solving SO many problems all at once. And think of the ratings!! We could market the whole extraaganza ala Super Bowl Sunday. We could have it as a Tag Team! Georgie and Ariel Shaorn vs. Saddam and Yassir Arafat. The winner gets a big gold belt and a permanent retirement from the world of politics. The loser... well it's a cagematch and sorry but I think they wouldnt get to even enjoy being in second place.

I heard about this book on the Diane Rehm show this morning... (all hail NPR)

The Hydrogen Economy, by Jeremy Rifkin

on a similar note, this is a book that Chad and I own about using systems thinking towards a cleaner corporate world

Natural Capitalism: Creating the Next Industrial Revolution
by Paul Hawken, Amory Lovins, L. Hunter Lovins

Political Links

The other evening, Chad, Rachel, Mike, Justin, and I saw: Jello Biafra, Krist Novolselic, Jill Sobule (who's hilarious) and Julia "Butterfly" Hill, as a part of The Spitfire Tour.. it was really informative and thought provoking... here are some links to that effect...

Instant Run-Off Voting
a really cool flash demonstration of IRV
People for the American Way
Information about the Green Party
Proportional Representation hosted by Krist Novoselic
Down with corporate advertising: Adbusters!
Al Gore speaking on Dubya's Iraq insanity

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Had a weird experience tonight... was walking home from seeing the Spiderman and Men in Black II double feature at Trolley Square.. Spiderman was a completely awesome movie adaptation of the comic book and Tobey Maguire is totally hot. but I digress... anyway.. as Chad and I were walking back from the movie, i saw three Saab's identical to my friend Michael's Saab... I thought this was odd (weird, really) and told myself that I would call him if I saw another Saab by the time chad and i got home... standing at a crossswalk on 9th East and 4th South forty-five seconds later, a grey Saab identical to his passes us. I called him as soon as I got home... we discussed going to the Celebrating the Body Erotic Class together. This would be really cool and interesting as Michael and I have very oftenfound oursleves on the same journey...Chad says that if you look at the clues around you... you can follow the Golden Thread that The Fates have spun into your life. Is this an example of such a Golden Thread????

I am sad to report that I won't be going to Los Angeles in a week and a half. I was going back and forth, vacillating between whether or not I should go... I had finally decided that I was going to go and spoke with Kent Sunday night to finalize our itinerary... tickets were $94 dollars on Sunday night... I went back on Monday and they were $200 dollars. Fuck you Travelocity and fuck you Orbitz!

So now I can't really afford to go. I will go at a later date, probably in the first quarter of next year, but it still bums me out a bit that I can't go now. The bright side is that I will be this much closer to getting licensed now, and can start charging people for massages. Woo hoo!

The Salt Lake City Weekly always has good horoscopes.. and I usually clip out the ones that I think are pertinent to my life. This weeks horoscopes for Cancer and Capricorn (I am a Capricorn rising and a Capricorn moon) are really great, and especially relevant since I am going to be in Los Angeles in 4 weeks, going on what Joseph Kramer describes as a "vision quest" Enjoy.

Cancer Horoscope for week of September 12, 2002

"As you grow older, you will become less enslaved by the negative imprints of your early childhood; you'll become increasingly free from the distortions your soul suffered at the hands of your kin. At the same time, your advancing years will bring a wonderful perk: You'll be able to harvest ever-greater amounts of the valuable gifts bequeathed to you by your relatives, both those with whom you shared your early years and those who died before you were born. In other words, Cancerian, as you age you will gradually cast off your family's bad stuff and become better able to exploit its good stuff. And I bet the next five weeks will be a turning point in this process".

Capricorn Horoscope for week of September 12, 2002

"When we hear someone described as having a good imagination, most of us assume that person must be in the arts. But in fact, some of the world's most creative visualizers are architects, inventors, city-planners, engineers, bridge-makers, and the like: nuts-and-bolts master-builders who design functional things. Of this group, you Capricorns make up a disproportionately high percentage. In fact, it seems that the members of your tribe are usually most imaginative when it comes to transforming practical matters and vivifying concrete details. In the coming weeks, that'll be true in spades."

Interesting news today. My friend and hair stylist, Dainelle, recently moved to a new salon where she'll be working for herself. I had coincidentally called her today... and she wants me to work for her giving massage! This is very interesting.. but her new place is out in B.F.E so getting around will be a hassle.. but that is why I love TRAX More coming soon as I find out more info...

Talked to Kent on the phone tonight... I wanted to make sure that me coming out in October wouldn't be an imposition on him and Alan. He was asking questions about the Celebrating The Body Erotic Program that I am taking and I had a really hard time explaining to him what it is about without coming across as self-depreciating or embarrassed. Joseph Kramer traces this sexual tension back to our Puritanical heritage. "The key to Puritans is there is a battle between good and evil. There's always the devil or evil in some form. With Reagan it was the evil empire, then the Soviet Union fell. Even television has taken this up: Almost every news show has to have two people at war. But I think sex has always been demonized."
WE have deeply rooted conflict over this sexual impulse. At all times we are bombarded by sexual images on the radio, internet and television... but at the same time we are told to wait until marriage to experience sex. That sex is something you do in the dark... you don't talk about it. Feel guilty about masturbating... feel guilty/ dirty about being lusty and desirous. Children and teenagers are not sexual beings. People who enjoy sex are sluts and whores! These thoughts patterns are the main reason that I am GOING to this seminar. To perhaps step in a direction AWAY from this thinking. But I see this also as a step further away from the mainstream casting me even further into the role as an outsider. To be an outsider isn’t necessarily something to be viewed as negative. Outsiders and rebellious thinkers have always been around to critique society and to shape it into something different. In my case... I am looking to heal myself... then take that to others. Somehow I will incorporate my learning from UCMT, Kinergetics, and The Body Electric School together into a formative healing modality. I AM Chiron, the wounded healer.

Peace

I have been working a 40 hour week for the past two weeks to continue my goal of going to this men's retreat in L.A: Celebrating the Body Erotic... plane tickets are only $94 on Travelocity.. and the class is $325... Joseph Kramer and I have e-mailed each other several times back and forth already about what it will be like. there are all kinds of "testimonials" (yay! testimonials, I heart testimonials!) on this site.
I already have enough for the plane ticket and the $100 deposit on the class. Kent is (somewhat) willing to ferry my no-car-having ass to and from the retreat. He gets incredible kudos for this. I feel like I'm imposing on him for sure. I wish that I would have time to hang out w/ him but Im broke and he works... sucks.

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Of course... immediately after i wrote the previous post the comments come back... how ironic!

I am totally irritated with enetation.co.uk... they have been having server problems for the last three days. When I go to the site, there is no information other than a new server is being installed... which has been the same message for the last two days. Grr. I want my comments back!

Word of the day

"Snarky"

Today on Slate.com a writer used the word "snarky" not once, but twice... I have no idea what it means... well it might mean hip or something but I think I'll start sprinkling the word into conversations.
Example: "That's one snarky hipster!"

Here's the link to the article.